The Ten of Swords
Ten of Swords
I was looking at my Horoscope Spread tonight, the third house is brothers, sisters, communication, early education. It didn't really hit me until tonight-My (only) brother died in 1993. Here I have the Ten of Swords. Wow. I had never experienced sadness so deeply before - and I never have since. During that part of my life I was feeling as if nothing would ever be "right" again and spent way too much time doing all of the wrong things. I'm not sure how to explain this but, I lost who I was and had no idea where I was going. It took me years to fully regain any real happiness in my life. I remember that one day, I simply "decided" that I was not dead and I had to do more with my life than just go through the motions. I mean, how long can you remain numb?
There is always something to look forward to, things will get better.
Well, that's enough rambling for one night...funny how a card can take you back to a memory and show you just how you got where you are today...